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When It Rains

 You know the phrase, when it rains it pours? Yeah that. Sometimes this life is so messed up I don't know what to do about it. People can be downright cruel at times. I don't see how they can live with themselves. How can a person be so hellbent on revenge to an innocent person when they haven't done anything wrong?! It doesn't make sense to me. I am so confused right now. I don't know what to do about anything. I am so mad my blood is boiling. My head hurts from the overthinking and everything else that is happening. HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?! I can't go into details because of reasons. But hell, this is such a mess. I'm fuming that's what I'm doing. I can't believe this. I just can't believe any of this. It's a total utter mess.

This world is a messed-up place. Small towns are the worst. Everybody is in everybody else's business. Friends that are out to get you are everywhere. Friends of friends on the other side of the line are bent on destroying the credibility of you and making life a living hell for everyone involved. Harassment my ass. I can't believe this, I'm beside myself. What on earth is wrong with people? I can't go there now; I have no place to go. I hate this feeling.

I feel so alone right now. There must be a way to get out of feeling this way and find a way to find the good in it. If there is any good in it. I doubt there is. What am I supposed to do now? Life feels so hopeless right now, I wish I could figure out what to do. There doesn't seem to be a way out of this or a way through it. I need to figure out something, anything to be able to get through this problem. It is a mess.

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