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If This Life Won't Quit

 If life itself won't quit, then I must simply go along for the ride. There's nothing left for me to do. I fear it is all just a game. Someone is sitting by laughing at my misery and misfortune. They'll come for me eventually. There's nothing I am able to do about it. It would be nice to be able to figure things out, but as I've said I can't. There's nothing I am able to do. I feel so lost. Lost at sea without a life vest or boat. There's nothing I can do about it. It is a lost cause. I can only sit idly by and watch as my universe falls apart around me. My world is ending.

Life came and went
I sit and watch as it did so
nothing else to do but watch
waiting for something better
to come out from it all
yet I am unable to do so
I am only here for a moment
the next moment I am gone
without a word to say
a song to sing
or a phrase to repeat
everything must end
things don't last forever
this life is but a complex maze
I wonder what it's like to see
eventually out there in the distance
if only for a moment
a thought process ending
and yet here I am waiting

The end of times will eventually come. We cannot evade it. We cannot escape from it. It will come and we will be left wondering if life was worth it. If there isn't anything we can do about it, then there is only one thing to do. We wait. It's that simple. Nothing else will matter beyond that point. We are not under the illusion that life won't be able to come after us, no we know it won't. There is no place for this life to go. We are stuck in the midst of it all and will be until the end eventually comes calling after us. There is nothing we can do about it.

If life doesn't have an end, then we will be waiting for a long time. It doesn't make sense if this life won't come to an end. God said there will be an end to it all eventually did He not? If that's the case, then this life will end. We can only wait for that day to come. There is nothing else we can do about it. They say the Earth will pass away but God's law will not pass away. That which is eternal cannot end. It will go on forever; it has existed forever. There is no end to God. His grace is eternal for us all to accept.

God is great. Jesus is King. He has died for our sins so we might come back to Him one day. We are God's children. We were created spiritually before we came to this Earth. There is truth in this. There is beauty in the soul that which is caused to have grief at times. But we can overcome anything that comes our way. This life will end yes, but our lives will not end. We will simply continue onto the next phase of life, an eternal existence. Our bodies will be perfected in the end. Job said that even though flesh worms will eat his body, in flesh will he stand before God.

Life is eternal. It is never ending. There is joy to be found in this life. Peace and acceptance to be found as well. Sorrow and misery only last for a few moments compared to the grand plan of things. The timeline of God cannot be made known, only He knows what will happen and when it will happen.

That is all there is to it.

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