Ever stop to wonder what’s in a simple day like today? There’s no guarantee that today will bring about anything substantial. In fact, today could be a big flop on the ground and no one would notice. I don’t know how any of that tends to work out though. It’s life right? Oh life, what are you even on about? I don’t understand you at times. It would be nice to be able to grasp something, even if it’s out of thin air, to understand and realize what that’s all about. But alas I cannot do that. It is life after all, and we cannot really understand anything that comes our way. If I had the ability to realize my own potential, I think I could benefit from it all. But I don’t know how to do that. It’s a shame really, to want to be able to do something with this life and then to be stuck without any reason for it? Yeah, no bueno.
So, I've run out of my medication. I have nothing left. I don't know what to do about it. I am not a fan of how I am feeling right now. I wish I could just be better. But the anxiety and depression are fighting each other and that is not good. Nothing is good anymore. I am afraid of what it all will entail. But this life will continue onward without my say in any of it. So, I just have to deal with it until I manage to get back to a place where I can get more medication to help me out. Let's hope I don't go crazy in the meantime. Who knows what will happen. I don't suppose there's much else to say about it all. I simply do not know what to do. Will it all drive me crazy? I really hope not.
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