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Anxious Today, WTF?

I am rather anxious today. I think it has to do with the medication(s) I am on at the moment. Doctor changed some medications, added some, did some other things put me back on medications I haven’t been on in a while…the same ol’ same ol’. Anti-Psychotic meds work wonders when they work, they’re amazing. When your mind doesn’t want them to work? Well, that’s when things become quite a problem. I hate to admit it, but life doesn’t always work the way we want it to work. What can I say? It’s a mess at times. There’s nothing wrong with that, but to say it’s not complex is a complete overhaul of whatever there is. Talk about a mixed bag of nuts. Someone doesn’t understand everything there is to understand about it all. If I wasn’t anxious, today would be a better day than it is. But, well I am so there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish there was…but there isn’t so I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes my way. Such a bummer if you think about it all. Nothing is ever cureable. Every...
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Life Is Weird

 Have you ever thought for a moment that life is weird? I bet you have. I know I have. It comes at us in so many different directions. Sometimes we don't know what to do with it all. Yet we continue forward like nothing happened. It's just life doing its thing. We think to ourselves.

They say that weird can be described as just something different in life. It doesn't mean anything bad. It can be a good thing, a thought-provoking thing. Something to consider at least. If I find life weird at times, then I try and look into it. See why it's weird. Maybe I'll come up with an answer, maybe I won't. Either way I know that something feels off.

I'm tired of all the lectures. It's all in your head. You'll get over it. Why can't you just work through things? Well, it's not that easy. Life was made weird for me a long time ago. I don't have control over anything anymore. At least that's what it feels like. I wish I had control over something. The music captures us all. We don't always see it, sometimes it's quite different and meaningless to us. But the music is there leading us through life. If you sit still long enough you might be able to catch a glimpse of what the music is. What it holds in store for you. Don't ignore the music, it has answers. It takes time, let it come to you.

The river of peace is flowing. You don't have to see it happening, you can feel it rushing over you. Space is vast and we are but bits of sand on a seashore in the long term of life. We are nothing compared to what is out there. You just have to wait and see what happens with it all. The waves in the river call to you. They beckon you to come to them. Heed their warning. Listen and learn.

I can see it all clearly now. The message must be made clear in order for all to hear it. To accept it into their lives. It cannot be abandoned or ignored. It must be heard. We've all heard the message before. Some have not listened to it though. Others have taken heed and listened to what the message is about. They have learned from it. Taken it into their arms and listened.

But who am I to say what will happen. I am but a simple man who rambles from time to time. This is an outlet to allow me to get my thoughts out. Nothing more.

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