Today was an okay day for the most part. I can’t complain about it. It was a little strange feeling at times. I can’t really describe it. I’m not sure I want to understand. Not many kittens running around today. It was pretty overcast, maybe they went into hiding. Who knows! Maybe there are things in life which are meant to be confusing. Yeah well that doesn’t mean it will make sense. There’s a lot of things that don’t add up most days. Whatever happens in life will happen for a reason. There’s nothing I can do to change or fix it. It will take place as it always is meant to be. That is the secret behind it all. Such a confusing concept that of destiny. We all have a destiny. We want to believe we are in control of our own destiny. I don’t believe this to be the case. They say God has a plan for us. What if He knows the beginning to the end. How we will react to different situations. It doesn’t leave much room for agency now does it? Nothing feels like it’s up to chance anymore. Th...
Feeling miserable isn’t the best feeling in the world. It comes and goes though. Upset stomachs can go away asap! But what are you supposed to do about it? The answer remains unclear to such a question. And if I don’t know the answer about my own body, no one else will either.
Maybe life really is a simulation. If that’s the case then there really isn’t much depth to this life to begin with. The real life is out there somewhere. How that works? I do not know. I only know what my gut tells me. I’m asleep somewhere waiting to be woken up for the first time.
Now the problem with this thought is people don’t want to see the truth about life. They will ignore reality to the best of their ability. It’s the nature of the beast and the way of life, however abnormal that can be. Yet here we are in a simulation, everybody looking for the best to come along.
There’s no telling what will become of this life. No way of knowing at all.
Psychosis is a very real thing. What if I’m actually sane and everyone else is in psychosis? Could that be possible? Like a real existence? I don’t know or have a clue.
I realize how that might sound. It’s nuts isn’t it? Yeah, that’s what I was afraid of. Oh well it can be whatever it wants to be. I will still be the same person I am today.
That could be a good thing or possibly a bad thing. Who can say what is what? I’m not sure I can. That’s all a part of this life. Life is so silly at times. I don’t know how to live most days. That’s just how things are, I guess!
Too many thoughts and possibilities in my head tonight. I need to find a way to make them quiet down some. That would be good.
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