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Okay Life, You Win!

Okay life, you have been hounding me for ages to do something about you. I don’t know what to do, but I do know you won’t win in the end. I will be victorious and there’s nothing you can do about it. You are a life full of mystery and nothing else. That’s all you are. Mystery. If you wanted to be something other than mystery, you would end up being something. I don’t know what you want to be though, so go on your way and be done with it. Here’s the thing though, you don’t have to be so flipping annoying all the time. You do have the opportunity to be graceful, kind, and good. But that’s up to you. Don’t come out of the woodwork simply to ignore everything else in life. You are better than that. You have to be better than that. There’s nothing wrong with thinking that way, but you can’t always be negative about it all. Life has to find a way to overcome whatever it is you want to throw out there. So don’t believe everything you hear. You know what the kicker is about life though? We d...

It's Always The End

Ever think that this life will never improve? Ever wonder if this life will become something more than it currently is? Yeah I tend to wonder that at times. I feel like the end is always just around the corner. There doesn’t appear to be anything wrong with that thought, but it makes me shiver at the prospect that life will never be the same. I wish I could make sense of that, but I’m not sure I can. Life will always be there tormenting us to the brink of death, and then we will “get better” as it were, only to go through it all over again. Yes, I know that doesn’t make sense. But when did anything make sense in this life? I don’t know.

That’s life for you in a nutshell though. It will always find a way to destroy us no matter what the cost. If I could figure out how to stop that from happening? I would. But unfortunately I do not have a way of doing that. So I must continue on my path to self destruction. However that may turn about, I will have to accept it and forget about it. It would appear that life has its grasp on me at times. So many things in this life don’t have an understanding to do better. I don’t know how to make that possible. It would be nice to be able to understand something about this life, but I can’t. Not now. Maybe in the future I will be able to do something about it. But for now? I can’t.

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