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Blast From The Past: June 22, 2026

Mon Jun 22 01:04:57 UTC 2026 Ah, a brand mew day is here! This I can handle. I didn’t hear from the kids, kinda expected that. I never hear from them on Father’s Day. It’s whatever. I deal with it and move on is all. Nothing big. Nothing major. Nothing too crazy. I really shouldn’t be surprised by any of this. I mean it is what it is. I know I can call them but they’re probably celebrating that other man who they call Dad. Gah! I hate overthinking this. It’s like this every year. I need to stop thinking about it. That’s all there is to it! Mon Jun 22 08:10:05 AM MDT 2026 Welp! Back to work I go. Doesn’t mean it’s not useful of course, work is a good thing at times. I wonder how it all would go down if there wasn’t work? I mean that could be kind crazy right? Yeah, that’s what I’m thinking! Well, the kids did eventually call last night, around 10 PM. They didn’t have much to say. They never do. They never know what they’re doing or are up to. It can be frustrating at times. Maybe ...

Blast From The Past: February 19, 2024

Let’s think about this life for a moment shall we? The important things of life nothing too graphic, nothing too crazy. Just life in its infinite wisdom. Is that possible? I don’t know. How would I know if that were possible? I don’t have a clue about anything else, why would I have a clue about life? Yeah it’s kinda crazy don’t you think? I mean here we are trying to do our best only to find out that something most terrible is going to happen. I wish I could say exactly what the terrible thing is, but I can’t. I don’t know or have a clue.

Personally I wish I didn’t know what was going to happen. Well wait, let me back up a second. I really don’t have a clue what’s going to happen. I just know what I think is going to happen. The reaction about it from my wife is just… I don’t know exactly what to think about the reaction from her. She’s been expecting it for a while now I guess. Feels like I’ve been taken out of the blue and things just don’t make sense at the moment. It would be nice to be able to figure out why this has to happen. Why she has to be going through this. I don’t have the answers to any of it. I suppose it could be a blessing, but I doubt it. Nothing ever feels like a blessing when someone’s life is on the line.

I need to figure out a way to stay from being depressed about this whole ordeal. I mean if that’s even possible ya know? I’m scared. Let’s just put that out there. I’m scared and I don’t have a clue of what to do about any of it. So that’s where I am. That’s where I am and that’s how things are going.

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