Paranoia

 Paranoia is defined as a mental illness characterized by feelings of distrust and suspicion of others without good reason. It often involves systematized delusions of persecution or grandeur. Paranoia can also be described as a thought process heavily influenced by anxiety, suspicion, or fear, leading to irrational beliefs that others are out to harm or deceive the individual.

It's a thing that some people have issues with. I'm not alone in this problem. I've had paranoid thoughts, paranoia at best. Mostly something to do with the government crashing through the windows to get me. It makes no sense to me at all. Yet it doesn't stop it from happening.

I hate it. I honestly think I can do better than it, but my brain doesn't always see that for some reason.