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Psychotic Depression

 Having this disease can be difficult at times. There are days where I don't know which of my voices are me vs an outside influence. If that makes sense. Somedays I just feel like going to sleep and not waking up the next day. I don't know quite how to put it, but that's how it feels. It's not an easy road to walk. I have found that out the hard way.

I wish I could wake up one morning and everything would be fine. It doesn't happen like that though. No, I don't think it happens like that at all. It would be nice if it would. But who am I to say how things will work out in the end. I'm a nobody.

A nobody who will get nowhere in life. That's who I am.

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