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Life Why Are You So Fucked Up?

Ever wonder why this life is so messed up? I sure as hell do! I don’t get it. I mean we’re here for a reason…maybe. I don’t understand anything about it though. I wish I did, it would be nice to be able to grasp something about this life and not simply expect it to be here whenever we need it to be. Yet that’s exactly what we do! We expect life to be here for us and we don’t want to give anything back, talk about an annoying thought process. But what are we going to do about it all? I don’t know. I wish I did, but there are so many things in this life that don’t quite make sense at times, and we are here trying to make sense of them all. It sucks, it really does. But what else are you supposed to do about it? I don’t know.
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Dear Dad

August 6, 2025

Dear Dad,

My therapist changed times on me. You know how well I do with change. I will get use to it I’m sure. That’s usually how change works.

Mom’s in the hospital for observation. She’s having chest pain. I sure hope they can figure out what’s going on with that. It’s pretty scary!

[Wife] and I felt rather sick yesterday. We were both pretty lethargic and our stomachs hurt. It wasn’t fun. I took the day off work and ended up sleeping a lot.

A father’s blessing would be nice about now. But you aren’t here. I miss you lots!

Love,

Kyle

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