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This Life Feels Impossible

If life had a way to conquer our mind, what would that look like? I’m not sure I quite understand what’s going on with it all, just that we have to be able to figure out what it’s doing at any given moment. I wish I could understand and grasp what it’s doing to us, but if we can’t explain that…what are we even doing here? I simply do not know. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what this life has in store for me, but then again I don’t think I can do that. It’s life after all, I mean come on now. What more do you want from it? Exactly.
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Psychosis What Is It?

Being in psychosis means experiencing a severe disruption in how your brain processes reality. It is a state of “losing touch” with the world around you, characterized primarily by hallucinations (seeing, hearing, or feeling things that aren’t there) and delusions (holding false, unshakeable beliefs despite contrary evidence).

It is not an illness itself, but rather a set of symptoms often tied to conditions like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or severe depression, or triggered by extreme stress, trauma, or substance use.

Key experiences and signs include:

  1. Hallucinations: Experiencing sensations that other people cannot share, such as hearing voices or seeing shadows.

  2. Delusions: Believing things that are untrue, like the feeling that you are being plotted against.

  3. Disorganized Thinking: Using incoherent language, jumping rapidly between unrelated topics, or having trouble concentrating.

  4. Changes in Behavior: Withdrawing from friends and family, neglecting self-care, or having unpredictable mood swings.

While experiencing a psychotic episode can be terrifying and disorienting, it is a highly treatable state. Early intervention—typically through a combination of antipsychotic medications and cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT)—significantly improves outcomes.

So, um yeah…that’s the gist of it I guess? To experience and live through it is something entirely different though. Sure you can Google something all day and think you know the causes and symptoms of something, but until you actually live through it? Yeah, you don’t know the half of it.

I guess I’ll just have to live my life to its fullest, it’s treatable and all that which is good. It’s not a death sentence, but it sure feels like it while you’re going through it at times! So many thoughts and feelings exist during psychosis that I don’t know what to think or feel most of the time. Talk about an exhausting trip!

But, life as they say continues forward and we have to look towards the future.

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