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This Life Feels Impossible

If life had a way to conquer our mind, what would that look like? I’m not sure I quite understand what’s going on with it all, just that we have to be able to figure out what it’s doing at any given moment. I wish I could understand and grasp what it’s doing to us, but if we can’t explain that…what are we even doing here? I simply do not know. I wish I had the ability to understand and grasp what this life has in store for me, but then again I don’t think I can do that. It’s life after all, I mean come on now. What more do you want from it? Exactly.
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Suicide

Overthinking finds me in an impossible situation. But that’s life for the most part. Whatever happens in life will happen. We really don’t have a say in much of it. I suppose that’s life in a nutshell now isn’t it? It would be better if I understood all there was to comprehend from life. If only there was a way to accomplish all of that.

The mind can be a badly diseased factory at times. Talk about a nightmare. Let’s talk about today for a moment. I’m depressed today. The problem isn’t being depressed. The problem is I don’t know how I got here.

When I get depressed, I become suicidal. Now that isn’t something to be proud of. But I can’t seem to escape it. Have you d# Mon Jul 20 11:25:12 AM MDT 2026 Overthinking finds me in an impossible situation. But that’s life for the most part. Whatever happens in life will happen. We really don’t have a say in much of it. I suppose that’s life in a nutshell now isn’t it? It would be better if I understood all there was to comprehend from life. If only there was a way to accomplish all of that.

The mind can be a badly diseased factory at times. Talk about a nightmare. Let’s talk about today for a moment. I’m depressed today. The problem isn’t being depressed. The problem is I don’t know how I got here.

When I get depressed, I become suicidal. Now that isn’t something to be proud of. But I can’t seem to escape it. Have you ever wondered about all the different ways to die? It’s an interesting, if futile, exercise.

  1. Drowning
  2. Hanging
  3. Stabbing
  4. Slit my throat
  5. Slit my wrists
  6. Light myself on fire
  7. Suffocation

Yeah those are a few items to consider at times. I wish I could just die at times. It doesn’t have to be a bad thing mind you. Death is a natural part of this life. Some just happen without warning. There’s no going back from such an event. Death is rather permanent. It is also inevitable. That’s just how life works.

No one needs to capture life in a bottle, not when they want it to end.

Suicide was once thought to be a sin since it was a person ending their own life instead of allowing God to do it for them. To be honest, I don’t know if that’s still the case. The scourge is real because of what has been said in the past.

Oh life, what are you going to do with me? I wish I had some sort of clue. But I don’t, so what’s meant to happen in this life?

Someone give me an answer. Please.

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