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Why Is Life This Way?

Why is life this way? I often wonder what’s going on with it, but I don’t have a clue how it’s meant to be at times. I wish I had a clue, honestly. But I don’t, so what’s the point of it all? If It’s meant to be a curse then let it be a curse. But, if it’s meant to be something different? Let it be different. Don’t let it be what you want it to be, be what it’s meant to be. Allow life to be whatever it needs to be, there’s nothing wrong with that. There are things in this life we don’t have control over, and that’s okay! If we can simply allow ourselves to become the better person, then we can allow such a life to continue. We can allow it to make us and form us, shape us even into the people we’re supposed to be.
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Another Day?

Fri Jun 5 07:47:57 AM MDT 2026

It’s another Friday! Or as I like to call it Friyay! Yeah it’s stupid I know, but it’s a thing. Don’t squash it. I’d like to be able to wake up without some kind of rooster going off in my ear. I don’t think they’re legal where I live? But then again, I doubt the neighbors even care. Then there’s the cats. So many cats. Cats with babies, cats without babies, cats making babies. It goes on and on, and there’s nothing I can do about that either. Talk about crazy!

I keep having these … dreams. I’d call them nightmares? But I’m not sure if they are at times. They’re rather troubling to me. Some are sexual in nature. Others are just there waiting for me to say or do something about them. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to have these dreams anymore.

I don’t think I think about sex a lot. I don’t know where these dreams are coming from. Then there are dreams that feel like I’m reliving memories. Memories I don’t want to have. I’d call them a previous life, but they really aren’t that. I lived through those times for sure. A previous life would be something I experienced but don’t remember and can only gain through revelation or flashbacks or dreams. So it’s not that. I suppose I can try and not dream about such things. I don’t know how to do that though. Dreaming is just there, I don’t really have any control over it? I don’t think I do at least.

Fri Jun 05 12:50:22 PM MDT 2026

Oy! Today needs to get better. I’m not sure what it is about today, but I feel on edge for some reason. It would be nice to be able to get over that feeling. I don’t know what that feeling is exactly? It’s something. It’s not a good feeling, I kinda hate it. I’m over it.

Such an annoyance to think about. Life has its purpose I’m sure. But if it doesn’t, then what are we all doing here to begin with? I’m not sure I understand most of what it is I’m even saying. Life comes and goes, we are here but for a simple moment. Life will eventually end, I think? Maybe it will. I don’t know. Life will simply be what it will be, and there’s no going around that thought process.

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