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Why Must Life Be Difficult?

I often wonder why this life must be so difficult, I don’t quite understand it at times, I mean we’re here right? So that must mean something , but I’m not sure I understand what that something is? If that makes sense. I wish I had a clue what to do about it. I mean, come on, there’s got to be a way to get through this life without us constantly going to war with each other. Whatever the problem is in life, we have got to find out a way to get past it. It’s got to be made manifest in some shape or form. I do not understand why this life has to be the way it is, it feels so different than anything else in this universe, at least to me it does. Maybe I’m not making much sense, but I do know this. If we don’t grasp life and understand it, we will be left with nothing. Do we want to be left with nothing? I’m not sure we do. If we are left with nothing, what’s the purpose of this life? I’n not sure I can justify an answer for that. It would be nice to be able to figure out something in th...
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Oh Life, You Bastard

Wed Jun 10 08:43:42 AM MDT 2026

Life, you’re such a fickle son of a bitch. I’m not sure how you do it, day in and day out. There’s always something going on where we don’t have a clue about what to do. If swearing up a storm would fix things? I would be swearing all day long. But it doesn’t fix a damn thing. See I just swore, and it didn’t do anything. I rest my case.

If life had a purpose, what would it be exactly? I’m not sure I know the difference between life’s purpose and anything else that’s out there. To speak of such things, feels rather illogical at times. Why pursue something that you cannot obtain? Maybe that is the goal in this life. See what you can do, and see what will become of it? Not sure. Don’t know.

Wed Jun 10 09:33:27 AM MDT 2026

If today had a theme, what would it be? I wonder. I think it would be psychosis is a bad thing that can happen to you and you don’t know how it will affect you. Yeah, something like that.

Wed Jun 10 10:37:25 AM MDT 2026

If I had a dollar for every time I thought about doing something, I’d have a lot of money by now. I’m not sure how that all works out? But it would work out for those left behind. But I can’t be thinking about that now can I? No, I didn’t think so. Yeah, thinking about unalive yourself is never any good. The consequences will always come back to you. They haunt you at every turn.

Never a dull moment with the voices around I guess. I mean they come, they go, they stick around sometimes. Most of the time they just do whatever the hell they please, without a care to my feelings. That’s life for me. It is what it is and I have to deal with it.

Wed Jun 10 11:10:59 AM MDT 2026

Uh, so furniture is going away. We’re getting some chairs tomorrow or the next day. So that will be good. It will be nice to have something to sit on once the couches are gone. Who knows what we’ll do about a washer and dryer. Gonna have to be careful about that I guess. Maybe we’ll find a huge source of income coming our way? I don’t know. It would be nice to be able to see where everything goes from time to time. I don’t understand it myself.

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