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Um, Life?

Thu Jun 25 01:41:13 PM MDT 2026 Today feels like there are so many difficult things going on, and I don’t know how to even do that! It’s annoying at least, but what am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Life will always be what it will be and that’s all there is to it. I mean, come on. If I had the ability to make this life listen to me, do you honestly think I would be here thinking about it all? I highly doubt it. There’s nothing in this life that will make me want to understand it less than someone in my face yelling at me telling me everything will be “fine.” Yeah, that doesn’t fly for me. Not at all.
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Dear Dad

Dear Dad,

I think there are days when I miss you more than others. I’m not sure how to fully realize that. There doesn’t appear to be a simple way of doing any of it. I mean, I’m still healing from losing you. I’ve no clue how mom and [brother] manage to live day after day. I guess we just have to pick up the pieces the best we can and hope for the best. Who knows exactly how any of this works. I sure wish I did.

Maybe someday I’ll figure it all out. But that day is yet to be here. I mean, come on now. What am I supposed to do about it all? Remember our phone calls we would have? Yeah I do too. Sometimes they were just a “Hi dad, bye dad” kind of thing, but I knew you were there ready to talk about anything that came my way. I got that, I understood that.

Love,

Kyle

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