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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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The Price We Pay

Everyone pays a price for living in this world. That’s not to say it’s an easy thing to do, on the contrary. Life can be downright difficult at times. But, whoever said this life would be easy? I don’t think anyone has ever come to that conclusion. If they have, they are in error.

If I had the ability to make this life easier, I’m not sure if I would or not. Maybe I’m just a lost soul on this whole path. With no place to go, and at times that troubles me. If there’s anything I’ve learned in this life it’s this: Nothing comes easy, nothing comes cheap. There’s always a price to pay eventually.

I wish there was an easy fix for everything in this life. But things come at a cost. There isn’t a clean fix for everything right here and right now. That’s just how this life is.

Thinking about all of this makes me sad on the inside. I would rather not think about things, but such is the nature of the beast. These things demand they be thought about and discussed. I’m not sure if I trust my thought process most days. It would be nice if I could trust it, but well let’s face it my brain isn’t what it used to be. Now it’s full of worry and self-doubt, I don’t know what’s real anymore.

Is there ever a reason to believe what you feel or think? Those thoughts and emotions can be manipulated in several different ways without your knowledge. You have to decide how or when to act on them, if at all. I remember being so anxious in high School. Always afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. I avoided a lot of things just so I wouldn’t have to deal with people watching me. I hate that part about me.

Everything feels like it’s going downhill fast. There’s no bump on the hill to allow me to soar to where I want to be. I don’t understand it, I don’t get it. But what’s there to get when you have Social Anxiety? I don’t think you can get much out of anything these days.

Second guessing myself doesn’t help matters either. There doesn’t seem to be a reason for it, yet I constantly do it. My mind never stops thinking, I hate that. But what can I do about it? I don’t think there’s much I really can do about anything these days. I have to keep moving forward no matter the cost.

In the end, I’ll live my life the way I want to. You live your life the way you want to.

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