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Um, Life?

Thu Jun 25 01:41:13 PM MDT 2026 Today feels like there are so many difficult things going on, and I don’t know how to even do that! It’s annoying at least, but what am I supposed to do about it? I don’t know. Life will always be what it will be and that’s all there is to it. I mean, come on. If I had the ability to make this life listen to me, do you honestly think I would be here thinking about it all? I highly doubt it. There’s nothing in this life that will make me want to understand it less than someone in my face yelling at me telling me everything will be “fine.” Yeah, that doesn’t fly for me. Not at all.

Death Among Us

Some say that death is the ultimate boundary to cross. It’s something we all must eventually face. There’s no lie to those thoughts. They are actually truthful as there is truth in them. Sometimes we have to wonder when death will take us. How it will take us. Why it will take us. Well, I suppose why is already known. People just grow old and die. Sometimes there’s no rhyme or reason for any of it.

When death comes knocking, you have to go. There’s no turning back. Once you go through that door you have to keep on walking. They say when you’re going through hell you have to keep on walking. Sometimes hell is all we have. that’s not to say it’s a bad thing. On the contrary, it could mean so many different things all at once. I wish I had an example of it, but alas I don’t.

I think there’s a lot of things I don’t grasp or understand in this life. It would be nice to be able to figure out what’s going on most days. But I doubt I’ll ever be that lucky.

Maybe this life isn’t meant to be easy. I suppose if it was easy and that simple, we wouldn’t grow as humans. Isn’t that the important thing about this life? To learn and grow? To become better than they currently are? Yeah, something like that. If life is simply meant to be, then I guess we’re in the right place.

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