DreamSense

That’s right, I said it. I think we should include Wednesday as a weekend day. Just a short break in the middle of the week. I think it would be cool to add that as an extra day off. Sunday - Day Off Monday - Work Tuesday - Work Wednesday - Day Off Thursday - Work Friday - Work Saturday - Day Off See how nice that would be? Yeah that’s what I was thinking. But I doubt that will ever happen anytime soon. Maybe even a Monday or Friday off instead of a Wednesday would be nice. Three day weekends? Hell yeah. Anywhoo, just a thought to think over.

I wish I had the ability to understand or at least grasp whatever it is I’m meant to understand by this time in my life. There are people who are older than me and they don’t even have a clue of what they’re meant to be doing with thier lives. It’s not for the faint of heart I suppose. It would be nice to figure everything I ever wanted to figure out in this life. But I don’t think that will ever happen anytime soon. Call it a hunch, or a gut feeling. It’s just something I have going on in my head. Someday I might have something figured out. But I woudln’t hold my breath. Not now at least. Maybe that’s the key to it all. I’m not meant to figure out anything and I’m just supposed to allow it to come to me. There’s a thought I never considered before. All of the would be nice to haves flood my thoughts as of late. I know I can’t have all of the wishes of my heart come true at once. I don’t even know what those wishes are, if I’m being honest. It’s just a weird place in time to live ri...

A book title can be many words or it can be a few words. It’s usually a few words to get the point across. It needs to bring the readers attention to the cover as they see it on the bookshelf at the bookstore in order for them to pick it up and go “Hmmm, this might be a good book to read!” You can figure out the rest. I often have trouble finding the right image to use for a book cover. It also needs to pop out at the reader. Eye catching but also makes sense to what the book is about. You don’t have to understand everything about the book by its cover, but enough to pique your interest. So that’s the front cover. Now, what about the back cover? I can hear you thinking about that. I’m on the fence when an author puts their picture of themeslves on the back cover. I’m like, no give me a blurb to read about the book. Tell me what the book is about so I can decide if I want to buy it or not. I don’t really care about your mug on the back cover. If you want to have your picutre on the b...

A while back, I wrote a book simply called “Darkness.” I have since lost the physical copy of said book, but I still have the complete texth saved in a word doc. I’m thinking of publishing it on the web for kicks. I’ll have to do some formatting on it though, make some changes etc. Make sure it’s presentable as a pdf. Overall just clean it up a bit. That should take me some time, I might even revise it here and there to make sure everything looks smooth when it finally goes to pdf status. I think it will be a good addition to whatever it is I’m making. I want it to be good, that’s all. Then again maybe I’m not meant to release it out into the wild as it were. That could cause to be chaotic and not in a good way. (Seriously, when was chaotic ever good?) So we’ll see what happens with it.

Tue May 22 09:31:24 MDT 2018 Been thinking a lot as of late. Not sure what to do about anything. Life seems to be a constant uphill battle. A battle I no longer wish to deal with. Talk about an annoying thought process. It would be nice to be able to figure out once and for all what this life is all about. I can read the scriptures and everything, my mind keeps asking questions. I do not know what to do with those questions though. I think that’s were the problem lays. Questions are natural. Questions come because people are inquiring of things. They wonder about life. They wonder about everything that comes to their mind. What is a person supposed to do about any of that then? If they have questions they ask. If they ask? They get in trouble. That’s where this life can lead you. To a deep dark troubling issue. If you end up in trouble? Where do you end up going? It doesn’t quite make sense now does it. No, I didn’t think it would. Whatever the case? There has got to be a reason be...

For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. ( Psalm 16:10 KJV ) Ah the man who wrote these magnificent lines. I often say to myself please don’t leave my soul in Hell. I feel I am a good decent human being. I have no right to be thrust down to Hell because of unbelief in something like religion. I do not know the best way to go about this life most of the time. That’s the truth. I hope God doesn’t leave me to rot and burn in a place called Hell. I’m not even sure if such a place exists! I believe we are in Hell right now. This is Hell on Earth if you ask me. There is nothing more terrible than this wicked corrupt state in which we are forced to bear. I wish I could figure out exactly what this life is meant to be like or about, but I’m not sure I am able to do that. Not now at least. Maybe someday in the far distant future I will be able to see that which I am meant to see. Something that will cause me to give pause and thoug...

There are two characters in Smallville that center around Clark ’s life. Those two people are Lana and Chloe . Now don’t get me wrong, I get it. He’s a guy, they’re women so there has to be some drama here and there. But during the first few seaons, of what I’ve seen so far, there is a ton of drama between these three people. I blame it on High School. It’s High School drama for sure. There’s no other way to explain it. They’re kids. Where kids are drama is sure to follow. I suppose that’s okay to an extent, but it doesn’t have to be sprinkled about every chance you get. I like the show, just the drama between these two can be a bit much at times. They both have feelings for Clark, yet Clark only really likes Lana. Naturally we know he won’t end up with either of them in the long run. He ends up with Lois Lane during his time at the Daily Planet. (Thank goodness for small favors!) Maybe they could have done something different with the women in the show? I don’t know what they c...

Mon May 11 09:01:06 AM MDT 2026 Life Is Weird Let’s face it, this life is weird at times. I don’t know how else to explain it. I wonder if there is a possibility of making this life … better than it is? I mean, of course that’s always possible right? Everyone has the ability to be able to fix things in their life in order to make things better. But this life is just weird at times. I want to be able to express myself in a better light, but I cannot find a way to do that. Maybe It’s For The Best Ever wonder if what we’re doing is for the best? I mean we have thoughts and actions based on those thoughts. But are what we doing really the best option for us to take in our lives? Who is to say if it is or isn’t. I’m not sure we have that capabilities within ourselves, not yet at least. What If We’re Wrong? There is always the possibility of us being wrong. We can be wrong about so many things, it’s difficult to summarize. Any choice or obstacle we face in this life, we might choose t...

Ever give time travel a fair thought? Not many people have. I understand that if time travel were to exist we would have met our future selves by now. I think if we could travel to different eras of life, I would choose the future. I want to see what becomes of humankind and humanity on the larger scale. There’s nothing wrong with wanting that, is there? No, I don’t suppose there is. I wonder at times what the future might hold for us as a race. The human race where race isn’t even a thing anymore. Could that happen in our lifetime? Maybe. But I doubt that it will. We, as a people, have so far to go in the course of this life. Wars and destruction must come to an end and cease in order for us all to get along properly. I’m not sure if we will ever get to that point in this life. It’s a nice dream to have though. Without life, where would we be? Without the concept of time , where would we be? There is a thought process that time will always be what it is meant to be. You canno...

If there’s anything I don’t understand or grasp about this life it’s this. Why does it have to be so difficult at times ? I don’t get it. I mean ok, life has to be hard some of the time. But all of the time really? It doesn’t compute. Maybe someday I’ll have things figured out, but not today. Not anytime soon at least. For now I’ll just have to wait and see what’ll happen when all is said and done. That might be a long time. Life is meant so we can have joy, isn’t it? I mean that’s what I thought it was all about. Maybe I don’t understand how this life is meant to be perceived in any way, shape, or form. That could be my own problem. If I have the ability to begin to understand why I have these feelings, maybe I’ll be able to understand the better parts of life and learn to enjoy them. Am I meant to enjoy this life while I have it? Surely I would hope so. I mean if I didn’t enjoy life, what would be the point of it all? So I guess it all comes down to how happy do I want to be in t...

What is it about Monday’s that can’t be trusted? I wish I had an idea of what they were all about but I’m not sure I quite understand what that’s all about if I’m being honest. The weekend feels like it went by way too fast. I wish I could have another day in the weekend, that would be nice. But I don’t think that’s actually possible. Who knows what next weekend will bring. I need time to recharge and relax from stress. Yeah I feel stressed right now. Who knows how long that will take to recover from.

Sat May 19 09:32:07 MDT 2018 I suppose there could be something out of this life that would make sense. perhaps it’s not really meant to be. Such a waste of time. Maybe not, but well that’s what it is. Life has a way of just kicking you around at times. I don’t know what to think about that most days. But if I did? I’m sure I would be able to pick it out in a lineup of sorts. Either way, life is life and that’s all which matters. Unless you decide to do something else. Then life becomes something quite different. Life comes along and makes you wish and hope for things that aren’t the same as the others. Everything destroys itself and becomes clear in the end. This life will eventually destroy you. That’s how the end comes. That’s what will happen. There’s no other way this life will end. For all things must come to an end…eventually.

To all the mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day to you! To those expecting to be mothers? Same thing. It's a day to celebrate mothers and motherhood. I don't know where I would be without my mother. Well heck, if I didn't have a mother I guess I wouldn't be alive now would I? Yeah, that's a thought that runs deep. Spoke with my mom this morning, she's good. She got the card we sent her, which is awesome. Unfortunately the print was a bit on the small side of the card, so she couldn't really read it and I couldn't remember what the darn thing said. But she appreciated the card. I'm glad she liked it.  Here's a poem for Mother's Day, it's found here : On Mother's Day By Bruce Lansky On Mother's Day it isn't smart To give your mom a broken heart. So here are thing you shouldn't say To dear old mom on Mother's Day: Don't tell her that you'll never eat A carrot, celery, bean, or beet. Don...

I want to know and understand, perhaps realize what this life is all about. I don’t know what that means in the long run but I want to know. Is that too much to ask for? I doubt it. I am just interested in the truth, nothing more nothing less. It would be nice to be able to figure out for once what it is I am trying to accomplish in this life. Maybe that’s not in the cards for me quite yet. I can deal and live with that thought. But if it were in the cards, woouldn’t I be allwoed to understand what it is that I’m getting myself into? I would hope so!

Life doesn’t always seem to make sense if you think about it. It would be nice if we had the ability to understand for ourselves what this life was all about. But I don’t think that’s going to be possible in this life. Maybe in the life to come, but not in this life for sure. To be fair, maybe we don’t all want to knokw what this life is about. We can come up with whatever reasons for that are, but in the end we need to be able to find out what we want from this life. What we can accomplish during this life and where we can go from there. It doesn’t mean we have to like where our life is headed. No one has to like anything about their life. But they have to accept whatever their life throws at them. There’s no escaping the truth of the matter.

Sat May 9 08:41:56 AM MDT 2026 Why Life? I don’t think we can fully understand or comprehend what it will take for everything to work out the way it’s meant to. I’m not sure I understand what that even means. I just know that this life will come about eventually. If there’s nothing interesting about it? Then we can go on our merry way and allow it to be whatever. I think if I had all the answers, I would have them and there wouldn’t be a thing that could stop me. But that’s not how this world works. There are so many ways to mess up in this world alone. I’m not sure I can grasp all of the different ways to do that. But they exist. I guess my question is why is this life so damn difficult at times? Do you remember when life used to be easier? Yeah neither do I. Sometimes you just have to get all of the thoughts out of your head. The only way I know how to do that is by writing. Sometims the thoughts get out of my head rather quickly, other times they stick around for a while longer....

So I wanted to find a way to make vim do a hard line wrap so it would be in nice chunks when I type without having to do hard wrapping myself. Well, here’s how that’s accomplished: " Set the maximum width of text to 80 characters set textwidth=80 " Optional: visual indicator for the 80th column set colorcolumn=80 " formatoptions settings: " t: Auto-wrap text using textwidth " c: Auto-wrap comments using textwidth " q: Allow formatting of comments with "gq" set formatoptions+=tcq I allowed AI to generate it for me, let’s face it, I was too lazy to try and google it for myself. AI can be useful for some things I suppose. AI isn’t out for everyone’s job, that’s just a myth. It’s a tool that can be used from time to time to accomplish small tasks. And for me? This was the perfect task that I needed it to accomplish.

Sun May 6 11:57:41 MDT 2018 Finished writing a book. Are We Not All Believers In Christ? Lastnight while I waited for Jane to get home. It’s not much of a book, only 80ish pags or so. But it will do. It’s not a perfect typesetting either. But after giving it some thought, that’s okay with me. We are not perfect, it’s a shadow of that I think. Yes that will do just fine. I might add to it later, make a second edition of the book. Fix the typesetting issues, update the notes at the end so the scriptures are actually pulled in instead of just references to them. We’ll see what happens. Other than that, life is okay. Kiddos are sick. That’s not fun. [Son] and [Daughter] have been puking last night. Not good at all. Upset tummies are the worst. Tomorrow we go and take a look at the green binders. Oh! What joy that will be. Let me tell you how much I hate that process. You want to know the history of things that happened… yet you don’t. It’s a mess it really is a mess.

Let’s face it, life hurts. I don’t know how else to put it. There are days where I don’t want to be alive. If I had the ability to make everything go away, I would make that happen. But I don’t have that luxury. At least I don’t think I have that luxury. It would be nice to be able to figure out once and for all if this life was meant to be or if we’re just swimming around in some game trying our best to get through it. I don’t know which is worse. So many things would be nice in this world if certain things didn’t exist. Hatred comes to mind. So much hate in the world and so many things wrong with it. There doesn’t appear to be any kind of stopping it. I wish there was, but I just don’t see it happening anytime soon. So we sit back and bide our time until it’s all said and done. We are then brought before some kind of judgement so a supreme being can tell us how bad we messed up. Yeah, that’s something to look forward to. Somebody save me! (Remy Zero) I think life would be more ...

Ended up in the ER last night for just reasons. I hate hospitals especially when it’s someone I care about that’s in the hospital. They go in for a legit reason, the doctors run their blood tests, their urine samples, they think they know what’s wrong so they go down that route. They do a CT scan. It all comes back clean as a whistle. No reason for any of it. Yet the pain was real, the symptoms were real. There’s no rhyme or reason as to why the trouble started to begin with. Better to get checked out than not I guess, but it’s all bullshit when the doctor can’t tell you why you feel the way you do. I’m not a fan of doctors for that reason. I always say they’re just practicing medicine. They’re playing doctor and don’t know what they’re really doing at times. I’m not sure I get it most of the time. I understand they’re only human and are trying to do their part, well most of them are trying to do their part to make sure people are okay and not sick. There are those who do unnecessar...