I often wonder why this life must be so difficult, I don’t quite understand it at times, I mean we’re here right? So that must mean something , but I’m not sure I understand what that something is? If that makes sense. I wish I had a clue what to do about it. I mean, come on, there’s got to be a way to get through this life without us constantly going to war with each other. Whatever the problem is in life, we have got to find out a way to get past it. It’s got to be made manifest in some shape or form. I do not understand why this life has to be the way it is, it feels so different than anything else in this universe, at least to me it does. Maybe I’m not making much sense, but I do know this. If we don’t grasp life and understand it, we will be left with nothing. Do we want to be left with nothing? I’m not sure we do. If we are left with nothing, what’s the purpose of this life? I’n not sure I can justify an answer for that. It would be nice to be able to figure out something in th...
I want to say it first began in High School when I thought I was trying to beat the devil. Now when I say I was "trying to beat the devil", I mean I actually thought I was hearing the devil speak to me at night and that I had to find some way to overcome him. Looking back I should have sought professional help then. I remember telling a friend about this experience, and he looked at me like I was nuts. Talk about craziness right? Yeah something like that. I believe my first mental break was when I was serving a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints . I wanted to go home so bad. It could have just been homesickness . But...there was something more to it. About halfway through I was just done with it all. I had had enough of rejection and wanted to go home. But I was afraid that I was unable to because I would simply be told no . I know that sounds silly to people. But that's what happened. I didn't b...
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