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Anxious Today, WTF?

I am rather anxious today. I think it has to do with the medication(s) I am on at the moment. Doctor changed some medications, added some, did some other things put me back on medications I haven’t been on in a while…the same ol’ same ol’. Anti-Psychotic meds work wonders when they work, they’re amazing. When your mind doesn’t want them to work? Well, that’s when things become quite a problem. I hate to admit it, but life doesn’t always work the way we want it to work. What can I say? It’s a mess at times. There’s nothing wrong with that, but to say it’s not complex is a complete overhaul of whatever there is. Talk about a mixed bag of nuts. Someone doesn’t understand everything there is to understand about it all. If I wasn’t anxious, today would be a better day than it is. But, well I am so there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish there was…but there isn’t so I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes my way. Such a bummer if you think about it all. Nothing is ever cureable. Every...

Adventures of Peach and Sock

Once upon a time what a silly way to begin a story… but whatever. Once upon a time, you know that really is a strange way to begin a story. I mean what on earth does it mean? Yeah, I don’t know either… Anyway where was I? Oh yeah, the beginning… ahem. Once upon a time, there was this little jellybean named Peach. Now Peach was an insomniac of sorts, never getting any sleep… or was that Winkie… darn I hate it when I get these little critters confused. hmmm

Anyway, there sat Peach at a desk, as she always did, listening to music. Walking into the room, I noticed that she was listening to Lords of Acid, and what an interesting song that was. Humming along to the melody… yes I said humming, not humping! um…. anyway, she looked up to me and nodded. I just looked at her and said “Well, at least you’re doing something constructive with your time.” Peach glared at me as though she were getting ready to bite my shoe.

Peach would get that way once in a while, doing this that and the other just to see what she could get away with. She was the rebelous one of the group. Always trying to find out what she could get away with, stretching the limits and finding her bounds. Once she found a boundry and her comfort zone, she would continue to stretch that boundary just to see how far it would go. Peach was always the one with a quip or cocky coment before a serious reply came.

A few minutes later, Sock entered the room. Sock was more of a reserved, shy type of um… personality. Always having a thought in his mind, but always afraid to tell others what that thought was. He liked to write Poetry and kept most of his inner feelings and thoughts to himself. Sock was very intelligent, but was afraid of what the future could hold… yet he still persisted and continued on scribbling his thoughts down on paper. Sock was the one to talk to when you needed a serious answer about something.

Of course then came along Winkie. Winkie was a red dino, and well that one is just self explanatory.

Anyway, these are the three personailities that make up kegg… lol No I don’t have multiple personality disorder… it’s just fun to pretend. But yeah, that’s um… it. That’s where I have placed them in my life. Oy… I think way too much!
How do they fit in your life? You know they do… What’s that? Over analyzing things again? I’m a blue personality! Read up on it… LOL ok ok, I think I’m having waaaay too much fun with this. Say hi everyone!

Originally posted by Peach
Hi!!!

Originally posted by SockPuppet
Hi!!!!

Originally posted by Winkie
Hi!!!!

Originally posted by Kegg
psst… hey you… yeah you, the person reading this extremely long post about…. well nothing. Dang if you read through all of that and you actually understood it… wow! Hat’s off to you! ‘Cause I don’t even know if I understood that… see my theory is when someone gets tired, really tired like I am right now… they tend to um… well talk about nothing! It’s great fun! You should try it sometime!

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