DreamSense

There needs to be more sleep hours in the day. I could have used a bit more sleep this morning let’s face it. But that’s not going to happen now. Oh great I have hiccups now. I don’t know where that came from. Let’s see if I can hold my breath. If that helps then the hiccups will be gone and everything will be fine and dandy. Nope that’s not happening either. Dang it. Maybe I’ll get there maybe.

Life isn’t what everyone says it’s like. I’d like to think it’s something unique, but well it’s not. It’s something that comes along to everyone. We don’t have a say in the matter. We live, we live and we die. There’s nothing much else to it. I mean, if there were? Wouldn’t you think we could explain why everything works the way it does? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. But we don’t get to have that choice in life. It’s a damning thing to make us worry over everything and nothing at all. But that’s life in a nutshell isn’t it? Yeah, that’s what I was thinking.

Sometimes you just have to see what’s out there and take a look around you. There could be people waiting for your help and you don’t even know it. When you feel a presence in your life to do something for someone else, take that and run with it. You never know who you’ll affect.

What on earth is going on here? I don’t have any idea of what to think or say. Life is getting in the way to be honest, but I wish it wasn’t. I wish it was being kinder to me. It needs to be kinder to me. Somehow I’m failing at life. I just don’t know what to do about any of it.

Had some nightmares last night, again. I don’t know what’s causing them…something for sure but I don’t enjoy or like them. They need to stop and I must find a way to make them stop. Last night it was something about a virus going around. It was spread by some kind of liquid compound. It was airborne and would also affect you on touch. Talk about a crazy dream right? To my knowledge there was no cure. At some point in the dream a cure did come along though? But people started messing with the pipes that caused the damn virus to come back. So we were all screwed.

Life wasn’t meant to be easy. [L]ife was simply meant to be. I don’t know exactly how this life was meant to be, but I do know life wasn’t meant to be crazy. What if life was meant to be something different? I mean here we are just waiting for something to come along right? What if it doesn’t come? What then?

Had a nightmare last night. I dreamed Dad died al over again. In my dream he managed to survive the choking incident in 2024 on Christmas Eve. The doc wanted to run some pressure tests by putting him in a huge tub of water, he would be fully submerged and wearing a mask so he could breathe. Well apparently it didn’t go so well. I received word in the mail from my uncle sending his condolences. I was in shock. How could he die? Again? My mom was furious that the doc waited a week to perform some kind of surgery on him. As I was talking to my mom I was choked up, I could barely breathe or talk. She then said I had leukemia in my brain and in my…appendix[?] Can’t remember where. I just broke down crying. Woke up in a panic and was very happy to see all was right in the world, that it was just a dream. But still, man. Talk about a trip!