Your End Has Come
Pop! The sound of a gun going off.
The impace of a bullet hits with a force like the wind being knocked out of you.
The smell of smoke encompasses the very breath around you.
The tears that run down your face are salty to the taste.
The darkness of night cloaks the eye,
Allowing the murderer to escape into the shadows.
You listen, there are sirens, but the are too far away.
As death encloses around you, it begins to strip you of the very senses you enjoy.
Your life is now a motion picture running through your mind.
As death continues to enclose around you,
You feel the shocking, shivering, sickening coldness that is its companion.
The senses that earlier screamed at you to keep fighting, become more dense.
Your breathing becomes labored and very shallow.
As the final moments of death totally encapsulate you, your heart finally stops beating.
The pain is finally over, the sirens have arrived, but alas they are too late.
I want to say it first began in High School when I thought I was trying to beat the devil. Now when I say I was "trying to beat the devil", I mean I actually thought I was hearing the devil speak to me at night and that I had to find some way to overcome him. Looking back I should have sought professional help then. I remember telling a friend about this experience, and he looked at me like I was nuts. Talk about craziness right? Yeah something like that. I believe my first mental break was when I was serving a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints . I wanted to go home so bad. It could have just been homesickness . But...there was something more to it. About halfway through I was just done with it all. I had had enough of rejection and wanted to go home. But I was afraid that I was unable to because I would simply be told no . I know that sounds silly to people. But that's what happened. I didn't b...
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