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Life Has A Way

Life always has a way of doing whatever it needs to do. There’s nothing wrong with that thought process. It comes and goes without a second thought. We can’t easily figure out why life does this to us, we have to understand something at some point, but if we don’t? Well, no harm no foul. It’s life and we have to continue going forward to see everything that is out there. There’s nothing we can do about it. Life will move foreward without the ability for us to do anything but wonder what this life will eventually be like in the far distant future. Oh what a joy that could bring about. If life has a way, we will be able to get from point a to point b in no time at all. It feels like a circle at times. A = B = C, isn’t that what the crazy future guy in Star Trek: Voyager tried to explain? Yeah, something like that. It’s quite an interesting thought process to be sure. It’s life though, nothing can be done about it. So let life be what it wants to be, there’s nothing wrong with that tho...
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Life, What Is It?


I asked Google what it was like when you die. It didn't have anything useful to say back to me. Oh well, I'm sure I'll find out someday what it's like, because we all get old and then we die. It did say you cease to exist. That was an interesting line come to think about it. I wonder what it's like to actually die. I'm not afraid of death, I'm more afraid of the process, going through that process has got to be a pain in the ass. For some that could be a literal statement.

But I don't know why I'm obsessed with death and the process of dying. I haven't a clue. I wonder why that is. It can't be a good thing, let me tell you. I just wonder what it would be like to cross over and go into the light, into a new world that awaits. I'm afraid that because I don't go to church when I die it's over and there's no coming back to God. Kinda scary if you ask me, maybe that's why I'm obsessed with dying. I don't want to go to Hell and all of that fire and brimstone kind of life. I don't know.

It would be nice to be able to see what's on the other side before you go. Is it peaceful? Is it terrible? Who's to say what's going to happen exactly? I just don't have a clue and that scares me. I've been known to say that I'm afraid of the unknown. Some people have related to that, others have just said tough luck and wished me on my way.

When I do go, I hope it's to a kind place of understanding.

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