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Never Alone

 Never alone. That's how I see my life, the voices that come and visit me. I am never alone. Talk about an annoying process of it all. I wish I had the ability to overcome whatever there was, yet I don't have a clue. I want to have a clue, something that would make it all make sense to me. But there's no use for it to make sense I suppose.

If I had the ability to look out and change whatever there was to change, I would be able to fix everything in my life. I wouldnl't be ill anymore, I could walk around without seeing things behind me, I wouldn't hear things I don't wish to hear. It would be silent and peaceful. That would be blissful.

I feel psychosis coming on. I don't know exactly how to describe it. I don't feel a connection to anything really. It would be nice if I could feel something. But I can't, can't figure out what's happening to me. It's just a thing that happens, I guess. I'll have to make sure I don't go crazy on this trip.

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