Sometimes This Life Hurts

Let's face it, life can hurt at times. Sometimes you have to deal with voices in your head, voices outside of your head, and just voices in general. You never know what will happen if those voices stop you from doing whatever you want to accomplish. So that's what this life can be about. Does that make any sense? I sure hope it does, because I'm not sure if it does or not. There are times where I am simply not able to understand if I am understanding what's going on correctly.

Sometimes the voices don't make sense to me. I don't know what's going on with this life. If that's acceptable then that's the way, it's meant to be. Personally, I wish the voices didn't come and visit or exist at times. They come and go anytime they please. That's really all there is to it. This life will come and go as it pleases. There isn't anything we are able to do regarding it. If we had the ability to make the voices, go away completely I do believe this life would be much better. It would be nice to be able to find a way to make the voices go away. But they still want to stick around contaminating our minds with whatever there is to contaminate them with.

You see, some voices are internal others are external. For the most part I hear the internal voices. At present they are fighting among themselves. It's distracting and exhausting at the same time. Somedays you just have to recharge after a day of hearing them constantly in and out of your mind. So, I find a quiet place to be and read a book. It helps, I swear.

There are times when I'm unable to recognize what's going on. It wouldn't be me if things were different. Sometimes an audio book is helpful. I can escape into the world of the book, that's all. It can be an enjoyable experience. That much is for certain. Waiting for something to happen.

The waiting, oh the waiting. It's nothing possible or impossible. Life doesn't make sense at times. I hate that feeling. To feel free would be the best feeling in the world. That's what I want out of this life is to feel free. Forget the voices, forget everything else. It all needs to become something different. This life can be arranged in a manner that doesn't make sense and yet here we all are. I'm not sure what that means exactly but, that's all-which matters, I guess.

Either way here we are, this life will continue the way it's meant to be, and we will be allowed to finish what we started. Until I think like the voices, I'm unable to figure out everything that was going on.

Suicidal Ideation

Over the years I've had to deal with suicidal ideation. Those are thoughts of being dead, some more extreme than others. It causes issues for me a lot of the time. It's not an easy thing to talk about at all. Here's what it is: Suicidal ideation ( suicidal thoughts ) are thoughts or ideas centered around death or suicide . Experiencing suicidal ideation doesn’t mean you’re going to kill yourself, but it can be a warning sign.

An Opposition In All Things

Long has been the story told about how there must be an opposition in all things. From the pre-existence there was Satan, Lucifer the Son of the Morning. In the beginning we were with God in his presence. We learned all we could while there. Until the moment we couldn’t progress any more, we were unable to become like God. So, we were given the opportunity to come to Earth to gain a body. A Savior would be provided to atone for our sins enabling us to come back to the presence of God. The idea that an opposition must be in all things comes from 2nd Nephi: For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my firstborn in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither...

Temptation Bible vs Book of Mormon

In the Bible in 1 Corinthians 10:13 we find: There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able ; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. But what might seem as a contradiction is found in Alma 13:28 But that ye would humble yourselves before the Lord, and call on his holy name, and watch and pray continually, that ye may not be tempted above that which ye can bear , and thus be led by the Holy Spirit, becoming humble, meek, submissive, patient, full of love and all long-suffering; So, which is it? Either God tempts you to a point and stops, or you have to actively pray not to be tempted beyond that no return point. Which is it?

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