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It's Always The End

Ever think that this life will never improve? Ever wonder if this life will become something more than it currently is? Yeah I tend to wonder that at times. I feel like the end is always just around the corner. There doesn’t appear to be anything wrong with that thought, but it makes me shiver at the prospect that life will never be the same. I wish I could make sense of that, but I’m not sure I can. Life will always be there tormenting us to the brink of death, and then we will “get better” as it were, only to go through it all over again. Yes, I know that doesn’t make sense. But when did anything make sense in this life? I don’t know. That’s life for you in a nutshell though. It will always find a way to destroy us no matter what the cost. If I could figure out how to stop that from happening? I would. But unfortunately I do not have a way of doing that. So I must continue on my path to self destruction. However that may turn about, I will have to accept it and forget about it. It w...
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Dear Dad

February 28, 2026 Dear Dad, Well you missed your fiftieth wedding anniversary. I don’t know if you are able to celebrate where you are. Or if things like anniversaries are even thought or cared about. It would be a nice thought if they were still considered for something, a memory at least. But I don’t know how any of that really works. Heck there’s a lot of things that I don’t know how it works right now and I have to be okay with that. Life is hard right now. I don’t know how else to put it really I don’t. It kinda sucks. But well here I am. It’s just how things are at the moment I guess. Whatever. I’ll get through it and figure things out. Wish you were here so I could just talk it over through with you. But you’re not, so I have to go it alone I guess. I read the news and it’s just terrible, so there’s no point in reading the news. It just gets in the way of everything else and I don’t know how to feel about it all. It’s getting under my skin at times, and I don’t like it! O...
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Dear Dad

February 21, 2026 Dear Dad, Life just isn’t the same without you. Mom’s going through some things and I think she really needs your help out on this one. But you’re not here and so I don’t know what to think or do or say about any of it. I mean we’re all here but you. I get that it’s not your fault. It’s not your fault that you died. It’s no ones fault that they die. I’m slowly understanding that. But I have to ask. Didn’t anyone try the Heimlich maneuver on you at the restaurant? There are so many unanswered questions I have and I don’t dare ask them, because it wouldn’t be appropriate. I mean your death just seems meaningless. Somehow I always thought you’d go out in a bang but that didn’t happen, did it. No, I didn’t think so. To be honest I think it sucks. What else am I supposed to think? Yeah exactly. Love, Kyle
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Dear Dad

February 18, 2026 Dear Dad, Life doesn’t feel fair right now. I don’t know how else to put it really. It’s rather annoying. I wish I could make it all go away and simply make this life work out better than it currently is. But there doesn’t seem to be a way to get over this. Or through it. I suppose that’s just life maybe? Who really knows at this stage in the process. Being here and trying to get by is difficult. But I’ve got nothing else to do about it, so that’s just life I guess. I mean what else can I do? Not much I’m afraid. I miss your wisdom dad. It always brought some sort of comfort to me. I could use that about now. But, well yeah. You know how that is. It’s just life that gets in the way I suppose. What else can you do with life at this point in time? Not much I’m afraid. So I’ll just keep on living life. Love, Kyle
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Dear Dad

February 16, 2026 Dear Dad, What I would give to be with you right now. I know how that sounds. It doesn’t sound good at all. I just miss you. I want to be where you are. I feel a bit jealous that you got to move onto what’s next while I’m still here on Earth trying to figure out this life stuff. I get why I’m still alive, I mean what’s there not to get or understand? I still have stuff to do down here on Earth. I just can’t give up and go to the afterlife ya know? Yeah that. Life isn’t very easy right now. It kinda sucks to be honest. But I’m trying to do my best to make the most out of it. I mean what else can I do? Not much I’m afraid. That’s just how this life rolls. I can’t remember exactly what it was, but I was reminded of you the other day. I remember thinking, yeah my dad would love this. I wish I could remember what it was I was thinking about, or what I saw, or … well it was something you would have liked. I know there were times I was a disappointment to you, and ...
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Dear Dad

February 15, 2026 Dear Dad, It’s been just over a year since you died. I won’t lie, at first I was angry and mad at God for taking you away from us. Especially away from mom. But I came to realize that this life just isn’t meant to go on forever. It has its limitations. No one’s supposed to live forever. It almost feels like a curse at times. But that’s just how this life is and I don’t think it’s very fair. Well I have a feeling that this life just isn’t meant to be fair. I’m not sure why that is, but that’s just how it feels at times. I don’t know how to change that feeling. I wish I could talk with you one last time. Spend a day with you at least. I remember the fishing trips we would use to take. I don’t remember catching anything, but I remember spending time with you. Those were some good times. There are regrets in my mind. I should have called you the day you died, or the day before. But there was no telling that it was going to happen. So I don’t believe I could have...
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Farscape Peacekeeper Wars

 So I finally finished watching Farscape. The end of season 4 was like, WOAH!!! How could they do that to them??? Then I watched the Peacekeeper Wars two part movie. It wrapped up the series nicely. Granted the show could have lasted for more years to come, but it didn't. Oh well, what can you do? The show's been over for how many years now? It was a good run.
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Jessica stood on the dock. She enjoyed watching boats come in and out of port. She felt the need to feel the fresh air on her face. It was something Jessica did to calm herself before a big assignment. Jessica was in advertising, and her latest pitch was to a car manufacturing company. She didn’t feel ready for such a big project, but knew she could make it work. Walking along the dock, Jessica admired the boats moored to the pier. She wouldn’t ever step foot on one of the boats, that was out of her range of comfort. No, she would simply look at them and admire them from afar. “Life seems a bit simpler out here, doesn’t it.” A woman’s voice said from behind. Jessica turned to see a woman standing there on the dock with her. She was dressed in a wetsuit like she had just gotten off a jet ski. “Excuse me?” Jessica asked. The woman gestured to the boats. “Come on, don’t tell me you don’t see it.” She said. “I saw you admiring the boats here. They’re beautiful. So many different desig...
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