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I Hate Life

 Let's face it, I'm not a fan of life. I hate it. There I said it. Does that surprise you? If it does? You don't know me that well. It's just what this life is all about. People constantly seeking other people's praise. What is going on with that? There's no reason for it. You don't need praise from other people to make yourself look or feel better. Sure it can help, but it won't last. So I hate this life.

Life needs to be better than it currently is. I know only I can make that change in my own life, like you are the only person who can make that change in your life. It is what it is. That's all there is to it. So you deal with it and move forward the best you are able to. There's no other thing keeping you from doing it, except yourself.

If I had the ability, I would simply remove myself from the equation. However there's something blocking me from doing that. There's no reason to keep that thought process going. I'm here to stay, unfortunately, so there's that.

If I could die, I would. There's nothing keeping me here really. There's nothing keeping me calm and resting, there's just nothing here for me. I keep saying that over and over again in my head, and yet here I still am. So something is keeping me here, I just don't know what it is.

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