Ever stop to wonder what’s in a simple day like today? There’s no guarantee that today will bring about anything substantial. In fact, today could be a big flop on the ground and no one would notice. I don’t know how any of that tends to work out though. It’s life right? Oh life, what are you even on about? I don’t understand you at times. It would be nice to be able to grasp something, even if it’s out of thin air, to understand and realize what that’s all about. But alas I cannot do that. It is life after all, and we cannot really understand anything that comes our way. If I had the ability to realize my own potential, I think I could benefit from it all. But I don’t know how to do that. It’s a shame really, to want to be able to do something with this life and then to be stuck without any reason for it? Yeah, no bueno.
Do I have to die to be understood in this life? I’m not sure if that’s an unreasonable thought process. It doesn’t mean I’m going to take my own life, no that’s not the point at all. There tends to be something in this life that keeps me from taking my life. I don’t know what that is to be honest. If I did? Hell, I could tell you! But since I don’t have the answer for any of that, well I guess I’m stuck here waiting for something else to take place and happen. It doesn’t mean life will get better by any means. It could mean that I won’t get a good nights sleep until I can figure it all out.
Too many close calls over the years. I’m not sure I should even try and remember what happened to them all, but they were real to me. It would be nice to be able to not worry or fret over any of that though. So many things have gone good in life and so many things have gone bad in life. It’s all part of the make up that is life I suppose.
So where does that leave me? Huh? Where does that leave me indeed. I don’t know.
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