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Confusion

 There needs to be some good thought process in life. Something good. Something worth living for. I wonder what those thoughts are. If I could understand exactly what I'm feeling? That would be a good start. But well I don't know what I'm feeling right now and that isn't any good. It would be nice to be able to figure life out. Just want to figure this life out and if I can't? Well that's a different problem now isn't it.

So here we are. Overthinking and wondering what on earth is going on in this life. If there's anything I can say or do to fix it all, I best be thinking about it quick. However I don't know what's going on in life most days. That's where it sucks the most. It would be nice to be able to understand. Just to understand why I'm like this. I wish I could figure things out.

What is it I can't figure out though exactly? I'm not sure I get that part of it all. Life is so messed up right now, I wish I could understand it all to some degree. Maybe I'm not meant to understand it all. Is that possible? Maybe it is.

If that is possible? Then I'm rather stuck aren't I? There's something new to think about. Yeah...I'm just lost right now. I'm sure it will eventually make sense. Do I have the time for everything to make sense? How long until it will all make some kind of sense? I don't have any idea.

So many things it would be nice to know.

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