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Anxious Today, WTF?

I am rather anxious today. I think it has to do with the medication(s) I am on at the moment. Doctor changed some medications, added some, did some other things put me back on medications I haven’t been on in a while…the same ol’ same ol’. Anti-Psychotic meds work wonders when they work, they’re amazing. When your mind doesn’t want them to work? Well, that’s when things become quite a problem. I hate to admit it, but life doesn’t always work the way we want it to work. What can I say? It’s a mess at times. There’s nothing wrong with that, but to say it’s not complex is a complete overhaul of whatever there is. Talk about a mixed bag of nuts. Someone doesn’t understand everything there is to understand about it all. If I wasn’t anxious, today would be a better day than it is. But, well I am so there’s nothing I can do about it. I wish there was…but there isn’t so I’ll just have to deal with whatever comes my way. Such a bummer if you think about it all. Nothing is ever cureable. Every...
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Thoughts Which Come To Your Mind

There are at times some thoughts which come to my mind. I tend to wonder where these thoughts come from. Are they simply my own thinking? My own thought process doing its thing? Is it my conscience?

Or is there a higher power that is causing such thoughts to come into my mind? I'm sure I can't be the only person who has such thoughts and questions in these things.

Once such thoughts come to your mind, what do you do with them? Is there anything that can actually be done with the thoughts? Or are they simply warm fuzzies that enter your mind and that's all you need to know about them.

Either way, whatever the cause, such feelings can have an impact on you. That impact can be good, it can also be bad. It's an impact that might need to be acted upon. How we act in regards to it depends on where we're at in this life and how everything will turn out. Until that point in time, just do your best. That's really the only advice I have for myself in this matter. Try not to overthink any of it, which I obviously do all the time, and simply move forward and see what happens.
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