DreamSense

 The weekend is just about here. Talk about a relief. I enjoy the weekend. I can sleep in. If I do sleep in that is. Doesn't mean I will actually do that of course. Sleep isn't always guaranteed. Just like how I didn't sleep much last night. I kept waking up over and over again. It wasn't the most pleasant of experiences I've ever had in my life. Finally woke up at 3 am this morning. That wasn't the best thing to happen. But it did. Oh well, there's nothing like not sleeping to get you in the mood for a nice long nap I suppose. Who needs sleep anyway? Seriously. Wouldn't it be better if we didn't have to sleep? Somehow program it out of our systems. Now that  would be an interesting thing to happen. I guess if we were Cylons we could do that, but well we aren't. We're just human doing our human thing, living our human life. There's no replacement for any of that. Unfortunately. It's life that comes to us in so many different ways, an...

 I always get emotional watching the last episode of Babylon 5. Especially the destruction of the station. There are so many good memories of the series that it's just emotional watching JMS flipping the switch and the station exploding as the last transport leaves. It's like oh the series is really over. The station has served its purpose not needed anymore. Was peace ever really achieved though? It makes me wonder. I've only watched the series once all the way through, I'm on a second rewatch. One of my favorite characters is Mr. Morden. I'm not sure why that's the case, he's creepy as all get out. I just know that he intrigues me for some reason or another. Kosh is also a mystery, but he's meant to be that way. He's an alien that no one seems to understand or grasp. The whole story arc is simply amazing. It was television ahead of its time. I'm glad it was made. Talk about a brilliant television series. It was one of the first serialized shows...

 I have to stop myself from time to time and wonder if it's worth it. Well, I have to define what it  is to begin with don't I. Life. Is life worth it. That is the question I wish to answer. I don't know if I have all of the answers right now, but it's a good question to have on my mind. If life isn't worth it, what exactly are we doing here? It doesn't make sense to me. That's too easy of a phrase to utter. Things just don't make sense to a degree. They eventually will make sense to me, just not at this time. I'm always saying things don't make sense and that feels wrong somehow. I should stop saying things don't make sense and leave it at that. To wonder if life is worth it can be overwhelming at times. I'm uncertain about my future. I don't know how it will all go down, or how my future will unfold. There's no way of telling right now. It's rather an odd state to be in. I wish I could efficiently say what it is I am thinkin...

It's dark outside. It's nighttime. That means it is also bedtime. Nothing else matters in life but sleep right now. Sleep that will get me through the night. Everyone needs a good night's rest from time to time. There's nothing else that can compare to it. Without a good sleep we suffer the next morning and day. There's nothing else to it. If we fail that, we fail all the other things in this life and that is a bad step in the wrong direction. Sleep is essential to our survival. So, we must be able to sleep good and often. There is no two ways about it. Either you sleep or you don't sleep. There is no in-between. That is life. Night comes and goes long before you are able to see all that is there Do not hesitate on the fear that night won't bring you peace for it will bring you joy in the end Nighttime is a glorious wonder a time to be alive and yet asleep for in our rest, we find peace

 There are things I care about, and other things that I don't care about. A lot of things I don't seem to care about outweigh the things I do care about. Life can be a funny thing at times. Oh, forget funny, life isn't funny. There's no laughing about it. I feel like there is too much going on most of the time and I don't have the ability to keep up. It just doesn't work out that way. Talk about drama. I hate drama. It's too much to worry about. So, I choose not to care. What's the point in caring anyway? If other people don't care, why should I? Family members don't care about my mental health . Why should I care about it either. They don't even try to understand what is going on with me. There is no point in worrying about it. Not caring is probably my best go to option in the world right now. Hell, if you understood my position on things, you might not care either! There just isn't a possible way to make everything have sense in this l...

 Life Is Meaningless. There's nothing I am able to do that will make it meaningful. So many things in this life and I have yet to even reach the tip of the iceberg. If I had an idea of what was going on with life, I would be able to tell you so. But I don't. I don't know how to make life meaningful in the slightest. It feels empty, an empty shell without the ability to speak forth words of truth. I should clarify my  life is meaningless. Life itself can be interesting, if that's the correct word for it. My  life is pointless as it comes about. I find things that are more pointless every day that I am here. What's the point of life if eventually everyone dies? That's what I would like to know. Everyone will die. There is no point to any of it. If everyone dies, then what are we all doing here. Some people try and stay alive as long as they can. They get ill, they strive to prolong their life. For what? What's the purpose of it all. To me there seems to be no ...