I've done it before; I'll probably do it again eventually. I've prayed for death, for this life to be over. I see no purpose in it anymore. Life is crawling to a standstill as it were. I am slowly falling my way out of tune with it all. I don't know what to do anymore. Just wait for the end to come. I doubt it will come quickly enough for me. No, there must be another way out of this life. Prayer doesn't seem to be helping me much. I wish I could speed up time to the point of death. That might be a good thing for me. There's nothing wrong with my thinking is there? No I don't think there is. I think this thinking is normal for a person under stress. To simply be free from it all would be amazing. I wish I could make it happen, but I can't. Not by myself. There has to be a different way to come about this. It is inevitable, isn't it? Death that is. It will eventually capture us all in its grasp. Why not allow it to happen sooner rather than later. I ...
Why is it when we say we're fine, that we really aren't? What's up with that. I mean why not simply say that we are not fine and that everything is a train wreck. What's wrong with telling the truth? I don't understand it. I don't get that concept. It makes no sense to me. I wish it did make some kind of sense, but it just doesn't. Life doesn't get easier as it moves forward, it actually tends to get more difficult. There's no way to account for that. It just happens. I wonder what would happen if people were just honest about what was going on in their lives. Would people simply whine about whatever is on their minds more? Would they just chill and tell the truth? How would all of that unfold. It's obviously better to tell the truth about how your life is going. But there doesn't always seem to be a way of actually doing that. I just wonder at times how life would be. Talk about a thought process. Many things can start with "I wonder i...